Being Different


Today one of the technicians at work told me I seemed interesting.
I said thanks and that my husband thinks I'm interesting, but that he's usually sarcastic.
Then I awkwardly walked away.
Honestly, I just didn't know what to say.
I take it as a compliment, or at least I hope it was a compliment, but when it comes to people saying things about me, I don't really know what to say...uhhh thank you I guess?
But the truth is, the more I think about it, I guess I like being called interesting. 
I prefer calling myself crazy or quirky, but interesting works too.
I don't really know why she thought that, maybe it was because I eat really healthy lunches in comparison to my coworkers or because I wore colored tights to work today or because I live with roommates and am married or maybe it's just because I like adventures.
Whatever made her think that, I guess something kind of sticks out about me.
I love living an adventurous life.
I love being crazy and eccentric and over the top.
I love being smiley and bubbly.
I love being awkward and goofy.
I love having fun and doing the unexpected.
I love living an unconventional lifestyle.
So if that's interesting, I guess it works.

It's funny because in high school I wanted so bad to be like everyone else, that I felt I kind of lost myself in the process. 
I was timid and backwards.
Quiet & Shy.
No real opinions and no real unique qualities.
And you know, I hated it.
There was something inside me that was longing to get out... to just be ME and to stop trying so hard to please everyone around me.
During college, I started realizing how little I really wanted to be like everyone else and instead how much I wanted to be more like myself. 
I wanted to be different, to go against the grain, to be original.
I wanted to stop being passionate about things and instead wanted to simply live passionately.

I guess finding yourself isn't something you discover overnight, 
It's a process.
It's everyday being more comfortable in your own skin and learning to love the you that you become when no one is around.
Every quirk, flaw, and weird aspect.

I am me and such a wonderfully made ME.
I think it's refreshing to remember that today.

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  1. Anonymous2/28/2013

    Jake is a badass

  2. Anonymous2/28/2013

    He is also sexy


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