Disappointment.

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It's so easy to trust God when everything is going well, it's so much harder to trust God when you feel so alone moving in a motion with no direction.
That's how I feel right now, lost, misdirected, alone, isolated.
I just keep looking for answers in my life and it's just so hard to trust God when there is no answers, no signs, no direction...
It's just frustrating when every hopeful path leads to a disappointing end.
It doesn't make sense.
My patience is thin, my positive outlook is dwindling...
I just feel so very weak and vulnerable...
A lost soul, looking for answers...
I know I can't see the big picture now;
I know there is more beyond what I can grasp.
I hope that I can look back at this same time next year and laugh at my own discouragement...at my own poor faith...
I know God places us exactly where we belongs.
That he has a purpose for every aspect of our lives...
I just think I need to work more on trusting that he will provide for me just as he should, when he should...
That He will take care of me and only wants the best for me...
But in my honest state, I'm struggling...
oh ye of little faith.

Oh Lord,
Restore my faith.
Help me to trust even in this weakness.



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18 comments:

  1. Anonymous9/26/2012

    praying for you Heidi :) -Katie Polley
    Psalm 139
    Proverbs 3:5-6

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    1. Thank you Katie, I really appreciate it!

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  2. Anonymous9/26/2012

    Every time I feel this way I try to tell myself, "It's time to go exploring!" I know it's so much easier said than done because I feel like I'm in that same situation myself. But I think that the people who face this challenging life situation are the ones who truly end up finding themselves in the end. Don't think of every path to be a disappointment. It's just not the path you were meant to continue on - and the fact that you actually tried is a success story to me. There is no final destination. Life is just one big journey so do your best to enjoy the ride. Don't lose your positive outlook because it's a sure way of losing yourself altogether. I completely feel what you're feeling, so seriously, if you ever want to talk don't ever hesitate to call me :) Love you pretty girl!

    "Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves" ~ Henry David Thoreau

    Amanda Hipps

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    1. Oh Amanda, this all means so much to me. Thank you for the words of encouragement and the advice. I really do think I need a good adventure sometime soon!
      Love you!

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  3. You. YOU just posted my entire heart.

    Bless your heart, there is a big picture. THERE IS.

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    1. Crossing my fingers for that big picture! We'll make it, I know it!

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  4. just know you aren't alone.. I said all of this to myself today, yesterday, a month ago, a few months ago.... it goes on and on. I will pray for you and me both :) If you need any encouragement, you know where to find me girl

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    1. Thank you, friend, know you are in my prayers as well! I appreciate you :)

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  5. Love you. I went through this phase for about 3 years. (Not saying it'll last that long for you.) I am still somewhat in it in certain things, career, etc. BUT, God will slowly start to restore your faith and patience, just be patient. HA! I'm sorry, but honestly, these were my least favorite times, but looking back, I have changed SOOOO much and I have learned MANY lessons from those times that help me NOW, in the smaller, less painful tough times. Text if you need more encouragement or prayer. :) Love you.

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    1. Yes, I agree-- I see the growth and the learning already-- but why does it have to be so hard?! ;) Thanks you Mar, it's good to see that this won't be forever[hopefully- haha]!

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  6. Don't you wish you could just sit down and have a cup of coffee with God? It would make things so much easier, so much more comforting. It's so hard sometimes to still your heart and just listen for Him. Stay strong, stay encouraged. This too shall pass.

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    1. Yes! I wish so bad I just could know his heart and what he wants for my life! I feel a coffee date would solve all these problems!!

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  7. Yes. I'm in the same place. I have been for quite awhile. Praying for you, girl!

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    1. Sending encouragement and prayer your way! We'll make it, I just know it!!

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  8. Hang in there. Everyone goes through times that seem like there is no light. It will make it all worth it when things do fall into place. :)

    http://sincerelyarizona.blogspot.com/

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    1. Thank you for the encouragement! I have a feeling you are right :)

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  9. Oh you wrote my heart out and I still have tears in my eyes.. I'm goin thru the worst phase since 2 years and there seems to be no end in sight.. Praying for you and I hope you ll pray for me!

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    1. Oh, girl, I am right here with you. I know there has to be some light at the end of the tunnel somewhere...I will definitely be praying right along with you! I know God will take care of us...know it!

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